Tuesday, November 12, 2013


I've decided to confess something.  I am a weight yoyo-er.  Before 2011, I never broke the 10 lb mark in a weight loss effort.  From the gaining side, it was always just a few pounds a year.  I never got back to my pre-pregnancy weight after Clayton was born, so I guess that was sort of the beginning of the trend until 2011.

In May of 2011, BFF and I went on a grand vacation to Puerto Vallarta together.  I was reading Four Hour Body by Tim Ferris on recommendation from my mama.  I brought it along and BFF took a gander.  Together, we decided to give the Slow Carb Diet a shot.  TF does a great job of making eating to burn fat super SUPER simple.  Simple, until emotional eating and cravings and laziness show up.  I certainly didn't stick to the plan 100% every week and sometimes I just plain gave up for a while.  By March 2012, I was down 23 lbs and feeling and looking great.

Here we are November 2013 and I'm right back where I started in May 2011...at least as far as the scale is concerned.  I learned a TON about my body and about body chemistry and about nutrition in the year-ish I followed TF's program.  I also was introduced to Whole9.com and their Whole30 program and the Paleo way of life.  In March of this year, I successfully completed a Whole30 and, again, learned a whole lot.  Then the wedding cake and food tastings began, and wedding showers and birthdaymonth and the wedding and summer parties and post-wedding blues and budgeting challenges and emotional eating and cravings and laziness.  BFF encouraged me to look into Weight Watchers after a couple Whole30 false starts and a growing feeling of "I'm just going to be this weight forever, I just have to be okay with that."  It works, for sure.  I just am too flighty to do all of that tracking for the many weeks it would take to get to my goal weight.  And I'm not going to lie, I know that what I eat "because I can" aren't the best choices for my body and getting the scale to go down is only one metric...and a pretty useless one at that.  I know that I have to keep muscle in my body while burning fat or I'll wind up looking like my insides shrunk in the dryer and my skin stayed the same size.  Ick.  To keep muscle mass up, I need lots of protein and I discovered that pure protein is pretty hard on the ol' WW points system.

So, I've been struggling for the last few months.  I hate where the scale is and I hate that I gained back over 20 pounds in less than a year.  Eww.  I hate that the scale says that awful number I SWORE I'd never see again back in March 2012.

Clearly, the number on the scale and the size of my pants matter to me.  But all of this really, I promise, is about being healthy.  More specifically, it's about being healthy for baby growing.  Mark and I want kids and I am 35 years old.  I had a rough pregnancy with Clayton and adding 10 years to my body certainly isn't going to make that process any less painful.

After a weekend of soul searching and way more tears than this SSRI girl is accustomed to, motivation and resolve showed up this morning.  The baby brother coached me a bit yesterday, too.  Beginning this morning and for the remainder of this week I am eating clean.  I'm not sure if I'm officially doing a Whole30 or if its going to be more like 6-days on, 1-day off ala TF or some other arrangement.  I'll worry about that at the end of this week and I'll worry about next week when I get to the weekend.  For the next 6 days, whole foods are the only thing that will be entering my mouth.

Hopefully this won't be the beginning of another yoyo cycle.  As far as I'm concerned, one time on that ride is enough.


  1. I feel your pain, Erin! Great post by the way! I think that you are on the right track. Journalling about your experiences will help you to uncover what you really want and what really motivates you. Once you can get those items nailed down I think that clarity will enter the picture and it will be easier for you to form a plan of attack that fits who you are as well as your lifestyle. I know that this might sound cliche, but when it comes to eating the right things, I believe that a failure to plan is a plan to fail. For example, if I don't have good healthy snacks ready to go in the fridge, I will eat shit. If I go to the store and buy "treats" I will eat them. Consider how you can shape your environment to better help you stay where you want to be.

    Good luck and I can't wait to hear about your progress!


    1. Thanks for your insight, Katie. Healthy living is tough for me but I like to think "hey, I'm only 35...if I can spend the 2nd half of my life mostly healthy, I'm doing pretty dang good!"

      Now if I could just convince the boys that they don't want bread and sugar and dairy either, I'd be set!